The people remained at a distance, while Moses approached the thick darkness where God was.
– Exodus 20:21
Silent Prayer is difficult. It is not easy for a number of reasons that become immediately apparent to anyone who puts any kind of effort into the practice.
The first challenge is often a level of uncertainty, discomfort, and frustration that we are not used to dealing with. I write “dealing with” because it is something that is obviously always there, but we’ve utilized distraction like tranquilizer for our minds. What makes matters worse is that we have no one or anything else to blame but ourselves because we’re just being silent.
This internal frustration is a darkness, like the one Moses walked into, in the way that we so often refuse to seriously look into it, so it just remains dark. But within and beyond it lies a greater and truer relationship with Christ.
I practice Silent Prayer and encourage others to, not so that we can become proficient at making ourselves silent, but so that we can become greater hearers and experiencers of Christ, who is all and in all and through all. It is to unclog our external and internal ears that are filled with opinions, hurts, self-centeredness, and expectations.
You, Lord, are my lamp; the Lord turns my darkness into light.
– 2 Samuel 22:29